Sunday, June 27, 2010

My friend Mr. wilson

Hey stranger it's been a long time. I think of you often, you were my closest friend through the roughest times. We got rescued! But the journey did not end, remember the long nights, remember the pain, remember the fear, remember the anger. To bad that when we got rescued off our island of ICU, all was good, all was better, all was normal. My children don't understand why I have not healed, I think that I have quit bleeding, yeah, but I am still not as strong as I was. That's OK, you never know, I might be stronger than ever just not yet. Life has this thing that says "you broke your arm and you will be healed in XXX amount of time". Souls don't follow this criteria.

Aaron, what can I say, it's easier to talk to Wilson. Not because of you... You are unbelievable, to take the pain that you have suffered and be the man that you are is an incredible feat. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! I could never in a million years even begin to comprehend this journey for you. The ones that you love the most, the strength that you had to not just run away but above all, Face it all. You are amazing and I love you sooooooo much. I know that my survival of this journey that was presented to us is not only on Myles' physical recovery but of your mothers recovery as well. Please be patient, as it is coming, maybe not as fast as all of us wished, but it is coming.

Bugs, (OK, I need to cry)
I have always been so involved in your life, mothers should be but I was much more than normal with your hemophilia. It was me that you "had" to run to when you were hurt. It was me that said, "don't do this and that". When you finally reached a place in your life that you were self infusing and becoming independent we were thrown into a world that I couldn't comprehend, little known you. I do not blame you for wanting to know that you can "survive" without me..........if I was you, I would want to know this too. And you are doing a GREAT job. We were thrown a really weird curve ball, weirder than hemophilia, but Bugs, we survived it, we are alive and anything that needs to happen is OK. You are alive, Aaron is alive, I am alive. This will all be OK in the future, please believe this.

Tuyet,
Where do I even begin.... I can't believe that you didn't run. You are the rock and heartbeat of this family (I used to be before I became weak). Thank you for your strength when I had none.. thank you for believing when I had no belief left, thank you for..............God truly blessed me by bringing you into my life (our life).