It's Been a Very Long time

Hey everyone,
Wow, I can't believe it has been so long. I joined Facebook in March and I guess that I felt connected to everyone that way. Let me think of what's been happening, lots really.
Myles was in the hospital in May with a very bad bleed.
Aaron and Tuyet got married in June down in Orange County.
I am still unemployed.... darn economy.
We went from Autumn to Winter.
Aaron and Boo moved into an adorable house.
Myles was in a golf tournament a few weeks ago with all adults and took the prize for longest drive.
Wow, I'm going to have to think about anything else. Maybe some pictures will remind me!

Excitement?

Excitement, what a strange feeling for me. I really can't remember the last time that I was excited about something. Pretty much the last two years have been fear, anxiety, and dread. I have had to prepare myself for so many sad and scary situations over and over again. I AM SOOOOO EXCITED right now for Myles. We will find out today if he has made Varsity Golf! No one can remember the last time a freshman qualified for Varsity. That in itself is amazing but what is even more unbelievable is what Myles has had to do to get there. I can still hear in the back of my head when they couldn't find a pulse in buggies arm "He might lose his arm" the doctor said. Completely recreating his hands with graphs, torturing physical therapy to avoid cantractions in his fingers, wrist, and elbows, hemophilia bleeds in his elbows which caused loss of range of motion. Holy cow!!!!!!!!! And here he is qualifying for VARSITY! This last week has been so memorable for me as buggies and I had fun. Fun is not something I have been able to do with my son in a long time. It's usually: Myles you need your shots, do your homework, keep ice on that, don't do this, don't do that. I AM SO EXCITED!!!! God I love my son. He deserves something great, for enduring, striving (physically and emotionally) and always being so accepting for all that this life has given him. Not to many people could even comprehend the pain you have been through in the last two years to get where you are today. I'm so proud, I want to tell the world................You go bugs!

I was a Pet

I have had hundreds of pets, horses, cows, monkeys, lizards, snakes, tarantulas, and so much more. They were my pets, my responsibility to look after them and care for them. In the first time in my life, I was the pet, to Toby. He did not belong to Myles and I but we belonged to him. He was the master of this ranch, the protector, the boss. We all (goats, dogs, pigs, Myles and I, even the chickens) respected his throne. There has never been a nail that has been nailed on this ranch, a new animal that hasn't been tutored, a coyote thas has yelped in the night that Toby didn't take charge. To Myles and I, he was the man of the house and we have taken comfort in this for the last five years. Toby was never broke like most horses as he had the spirit that was given to him at birth. He told all of us what to do and we all lovingly did it, he watched over us. But he watched over all of us with love and compassion. He would wiggle his nose on you to let you know how much he loved you. When he was full of piss and vinegar, look out. He would even sneek up on Aaron and Tuyet's tiny Shi-Tzu and just nuzzle her with his nose. Everyone here seems a little lost, like we don't have Toby to do the checks and balances that he has always done. I wish I could of bottled his smell, everyday I smelled him, it was always like sniffing lavendar and calming my soul. He protected Myles and I, living out here in the country alone and I thank him for that. I WAS PROUD TO BE HIS PET.

You will always be remembered "The boob"!

It's Been A While

I have not posted in a long time. Not sure why. December was a solemn month for me as burn victims keep coming into my reality. I'm sure there is a reason for it, but it (memories) still hurts. I think I am supposed to start speaking out in the name of fire prevention, split second life changing moments. We had a very quiet Christmas, no money but lots of family love (much better anyway). Myles is doing great! He is a 100% complete fourteen year old teenager (ugh). I am starting to get really excited about Aaron and Tuyet's wedding. Myles and I haven't been to California since my sisters funeral. It will be nice to go down there and see old friends on better terms. It's funny, with Aaron and Tuyet being together for so long, almost seven years, I always feel that they ARE married. Better yet, this is a step closer to grandchildren!!!!!!!