Hard to breathe

There are things that you think you are over...then you realize that you have just stuck them very deep in your soul for safe keeping. Something happens, you see that boyfriend that you really thought you would spend the rest of your life with, that song on the radio that takes you back to a special moment in time that you have forgotten about, the spider webs that you only saw when you were hugging the one that you love. There are other things that you forgot. The smell of the intensive care unit, the monitors of a heart that you can't live without, the wish that your own son would go to his creator rather than deal with the living hell he is given even knowing that you will die without him. It's unbelievable what can trigger these memories ,but when it happens, you have to surrender to them, as nothing will break them from your soul.